ROASTING GREEN CHICKPEAS WITH FAIROUZ OUTSIDE OF AMMAN, JORDAN

after Safia Elhillo


before al westness fairouz
i        held my mama’s hand under
a pomegranate tree a self-enforced
silence carving  our  palms  into  bark
between  ana wa her always an economy
of language habeebti here it is always
this grey wa ana  always this  sad
before al westness fairouz 
i           would drain honeysuckles
of their nectar    you know
 my mouth will always be 
where i go to die habeebti
 it is hard to think of other
things                sometimes

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TEXT:
ZEIN SA’DEDIN
UNITED KINGDOM